On gossamer wings.
My name is Sarah. 20. My true loves include my cat Bagheera, National Geographic, nature, animals, traveling, anatomy, reading, painting, drawing, soul-searching, writing, music, tea, blankets, Autumn, the mountains, lakes, skeletons, trivia, fashion, orchids, pillow-talk, tennis, the taste of blood, the smell after it rains, the sound of cicadas, the feel of a forehead kiss, and the sight of a harvest moon.
Hurt
It is the most Unfulfilling thing to love someone with every single ounce of your being and to have them tell you they no longer want you. I know I am not perfect and I am flawed and it was my fault but when you invest so much in someone it is so heartbreaking to lose them. They become a part of you and interweave themselves into your life in a way that you can never fully remove them from it. There are so many things that remind me of him and it is so awful. It arouses a whole new wave of grief and frustration every time I see something he gave me or something we shared. It is such misery to live like this and I would do ANYTHING to feel nothing. I hate how long it will take to rid myself of all of this. I wish so much that there was something I could do to change it but I can’t change what happened and I can’t take it back. He’ll never know that I would never hurt him and that I will always love him. I can’t tell if that’s the worst part or if the fact that I’ll never be with him again is and that I can never show him I would have changed.
